I read the article about selling your soul. It makes me feel better but I am concerned still. As a child, I was saved. But I signed a contract in blood denouncing Christ forever almost a year ago. I was a dedicated Satanist. I was angry at God for my parents' behavior (alcoholism and promiscuity). But since then I've gone to church with a friend and am part of a youth group. Am I really still saved? Is it too late for me? Am I going to hell?
Truth is defined by God, not by people and definitely not by Satan. "Sanctify them by Your truth. Your word is truth" (John 17:17). So where does God say that people cannot change? I know of no such statement. Instead, I find:
"But if a wicked man turns from all his sins which he has committed, keeps all My statutes, and does what is lawful and right, he shall surely live; he shall not die. None of the transgressions which he has committed shall be remembered against him; because of the righteousness which he has done, he shall live. "Do I have any pleasure at all that the wicked should die?" says the Lord GOD, "and not that he should turn from his ways and live?" But when a righteous man turns away from his righteousness and commits iniquity, and does according to all the abominations that the wicked man does, shall he live? All the righteousness which he has done shall not be remembered; because of the unfaithfulness of which he is guilty and the sin which he has committed, because of them he shall die" (Ezekiel 18:21-24).
Bad people can become good. Good people can become bad. When God judges a person, He looks at who that person is and not at who he was.
Your "contract" was worthless. It held no meaning and had no value. It was an imaginary piece of nonsense meant to convince foolish people to not even try to change.
I do find your reasoning for chasing after Satanism interestingly odd. You were mad that your parents violated God's laws, so in retribution you decided to become a worse sinner? And you blamed God for this? Wasn't it God who defined what your parents were doing as wrong?
Now, in regards to salvation, I can't answer that because I don't know if you have been following God's teachings on the matter or not. I do know that most places don't teach the full truth about salvation for a variety of reasons. However, these article should explain the matter and give you passages to go read, so you can see for yourself what is needed:
As far as my parents are concerned, everything was fine for a long time and then it all went bad so quickly. My father threatened to kill my mom and take me away. I often asked: "How could you let this happen?". I hated my parents and the Lord. I know it doesn't make much sense. It didn't really make sense to me either.
I understand. When your world is turned upside down, it is hard to know where to stand. I wanted to point out how far you've come. You know can look back and see that you weren't thinking correctly back then. You blamed God for sins that He is actively trying to rescue people from committing. Now you know the real problem is Satan and how he lured your parents away from the Creator who loved them.
Thank you so much, Mr. Hamilton. It means a lot that you pointed that out. Thank you for the clarity. This makes me so happy and hopeful.