I suspect that you don't consider yourself really addicted to marijuana. Most users don't think they are addicted. After all, you are certain you can stop any time you want to. The fact that you never get around to wanting to stop never enters your mind. When you are forced into situations where you see you can't stop, you get mad at everyone else but never mad at marijuana.
Here's one list of addiction from Narconon:
Symptoms of Marijuana Addiction:
- Marijuana tolerance: Either need for markedly increased amounts of marijuana to achieve intoxication, or markedly diminished effect with continued use of the same amount of marijuana.
- Greater use of marijuana than intended: Marijuana taken in larger amounts or over a longer period than was intended
- Unsuccessful efforts to cut down or control marijuana use
- A great deal of time spent in using marijuana
- Marijuana use causing a reduction in social, occupational or recreational activities.
- Continued marijuana use despite knowing it will cause significant problems.
I've seen points 2 through 6 in your behavior. That is why I know you are an addict. It isn't enough to admit that you use marijuana, you have to face the reality of the situation: you are addicted to marijuana. You are not a free man. You don't have control over your life. You live a lie if you think you do.
"They have struck me, but I was not hurt; They have beaten me, but I did not feel it. When shall I awake, that I may seek another?" (Proverbs 23:35).