I want to jump and lavish in God's glory


I'm a Roman Catholic and I finally fully accepted Jesus into my life after 15 years of me just saying I believe in him and still turn my back and obey the world. I am continuously growing and deepening my relationship with him. I go to a Christian school and my bestfriend is a Christian. They have a church and she told me that I'm welcome to drop by any time, so I did. I felt like they can also help me to grow in my relationship with the Lord.

My family usually goes to a Catholic church nearby every Sunday, but I noticed that I just feel detached. While I'm there I really just want to raise my hand and sing and worship and praise Jesus, or while the priest says a small sermon, I would just like to yell 'Amen!' I wanted to just jump around and lavish in God's glory and be with people who are passionately with Christ. I won't say that the people there are not passionate at all, but I just feel like there's no point in me going there when I feel detached. I just can't pay attention. In a Christian church I just feel like my spirit is being lit and flames erupt.

About three visits later my parents have become hostile and didn't let me go to the Christian church because it is not legal at all according to them. I wanted them to talk to the pastors there, but they won't, they've covered their ears.

Ever since then I haven't been able to go there and I tried to pay attention in my local church, but I just couldn't while continuously apologizing to the Lord.  

The thing is I want to be baptized again, by means of again it's because I've undergone infant baptism. I don't know if they will agree or they'll just get mad at me.

I want to prioritize God's law over this world's. I don't want to be worldly anymore, and I also don't want to disobey my parents, so I will continue to pray for it.

Any advices?


I hope you realize that I'm not Roman Catholic. I'm just a plain Christian and my aim is to only teach the Bible.

Your argument is not based on Scripture or a desire to follow God. It revolves around you wanting to be entertained by an emotional experience. See: Who is Closer to God? Don't get me wrong, it would be wonderful for you to become a Christian in the true sense of the word, but chasing after emotional highs is not the way to find truth. "For do I now persuade men, or God? Or do I seek to please men? For if I still pleased men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ" (Galatians 1:10).

"By this we know that we have come to know Him, if we keep His commandments. The one who says, "I have come to know Him," and does not keep His commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him; but whoever keeps His word, in him the love of God has truly been perfected. By this we know that we are in Him: the one who says he abides in Him ought himself to walk in the same manner as He walked" (I John 2:3-6).