I want to give up homosexuality, pornography and masturbation because I feel bad after doing these things. A part of me wants to go back, but I also don't want to. I see it as a burden because everything seems going wrong for me. Please, I need prayers and counseling.
I'm glad you want to change, but you need to realize that the effort has to come from you. No one can make you change. You have to want it so badly that you are willing to put every effort into changing.
As with any sin, there is a desire to return because it is a familiar routine. But you have to fight against that desire. "But Jesus said to him, "No one, having put his hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God"" (Luke 9:62). You have to force yourself to focus on the goal and not on your past.