I had lost a baby last May. After the miscarriage, I wasn't put on any birth control. My boyfriend and I had unprotected sex. He pulls out, but he pre-nuts a lot while we are having sex. One night, well OK, I cheated and had unprotected sex with a friend. I don't know if he came inside me, but now I'm pregant and I don't know who the father is because all of this happen the same week.
"He who sows iniquity will reap sorrow" (Proverbs 22:8).
You were having sex and the natural consequence of sex is children. You committed fornication with multiple men and now you are pregnant and your poor child will be raised by careless parents -- unless you decide to straighten up and live righteously. I would suggest that you stop the foolishness and start focusing on the fact that you brought a child into this world who will need to be raised not to repeat the sins of his parents.
"Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived. Neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor homosexuals, nor sodomites, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners will inherit the kingdom of God. And such were some of you. But you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus and by the Spirit of our God" (I Corinthians 6:9-11).
I'm not understanding. I'm scared and I will never raise my child feeling hopeless. I just made a mistake and wishing for the best to overcome. For me and my family. I want my child to grow up with his father and mother.
I'm puzzled what you see as a mistake. This is your second child this year, so it is clear that you are trying to get pregnant. The fact that you are willing to use men to have made no commitment to you as sperm donors shows that you don't consider raising a child in a stable home important.
If you want a family, you have to build a family. You are like a person trying to move furniture in before the walls are put up on a house. Find a man who loves you -- not a man who just loves to have sex with you. Marry him. Then bring children into that stable and loving relationship.
"I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem, by the gazelles or by the does of the field, do not stir up nor awaken love until it pleases" (Song of Solomon 2:7). You are trying to rush love by skipping many of the steps and the result is that you don't find the love you sought.